Her heart skipped a beat. She had actually felt that so traumatizing statement in her life. Her heart skipped another beat and she realized yes truly she was in love. ‘in love’ the trauma-filled statement that she had never ever thought was real. it was real not because she saw it or had tiny mushy butterflies in her belly. It was Because she felt an overwhelming power that weakened her female guts and strength. She felt a supreme body overshadow her being. She shut her eyes not in pain-no, in the aura of love. The last time a feeling close to this had been born in her was six years ago; a mere crush-supposedly infatuation that lasted six years and now has she set eyes on the same person, the feeling bloomed up in her.
She tried to turn away but she couldn’t avoid the sparkle in his eyes. she hadn’t seen him in five years but it didn’t seem like it. The social networks even though they hardly spoke somehow kept her connected to him. She pushed her desk forward. She wanted to talk to him. She wondered whether his seeing her would make him like her. She pulled the desk backward ‘I doubt’ she said with hesitation. She was never like this. She didn’t believe love could tame a wild girl. She was the classic wild girl ‘whatever’ was her theme in life as far as she looked good and was considered a gem. She had never taken a guy serious-not that they took her any serious. This was the person she belonged to. She just knew it. She had that feeling when you’re so sure about something and everything.
She tried to forget him ‘common’ she said to herself ‘dupe, you’re Mills; you don’t fall in love or love’
She focused on her newly acquired blackberry touch and poured her feelings into twitter. The world she had forever used to stalk him. Someone tapped her, driving her away from the retweet she’d just gotten
‘oh what is it?’ she asked in alarm and almost dramatically she turned back. She had thought it was Tobi or Anjie who had been disturbing her in the past half-hour. She was wrong. For a second on sighting the alleged disturbance, she felt like Paul on the road to Damascus. She felt like she’d taken a momentary step away from earth into the place called heaven.
‘Hellooo?’ he said
His voice was still the same; just as she remembered it from junior school. She didn’t know what to say. Then she smiled and stood up as he hands were waiting for a hug. ‘mills’ he said ‘wow, you’ve grown. You look better than your Face book pictures’
It first registered that he also glanced through her profile once or twice or regularly. Then it also registered that he’d complimented her. Her eyes glowed but she didn’t know what to say. She was tempted to hiss and say something rude and just be herself; the way she was around every other person but his eyes charmed her and she smiled again. ‘So have you. So you want to study medicine?’ she asked then realized it was the lamest second sentence to be uttered. He was in the exam hall wasn’t he?
He smiled ‘yes I do as you can see. And I also know you want to study it too’
She smiled. There was an awkward silence.
‘We should catch up anyway’ he said and almost pecked her until someone rudely interrupted.
‘Jay!’ she screamed. Dupe looked at her and eyed her meticulously. She was wearing a black vintage dress accompanied by, white pearl beads. She almost uttered her dismay at the girls dressing for the exam when every other person was on jeans and a shirt.
‘What’s up’ she asked after a long hug with him.
‘Nothing baby’ he was even holding her waist.
Her heart sank and she abruptly took her seat. She thought finally she could have him to herself but no doubt, there’d be some competition. Then another girl came over and after an almost endless chatter which seemed about twenty minutes-a chatter she pretended not to listen to as she solved one math question thirty times, he ran over to meet another girl.
She stared at the girl. An embodiment of real beauty dressed casually in shorts and a white fitted tank top. dupe knew too well that whatever they all felt for him couldn’t match the love she had for him. He just couldn’t see. He was driven by countless girls who only adored his swag and exquisiteness when she loved him not only for his looks but for who he really was.
She wasn’t going to give up on him. he’d someday love her and realize she was the only one for him. She’d jokingly told Anjie it was juju she would use but she knew one day, the feeling he knew she had for him would be mutual. She only hoped she’d still be in love with him that day when he realized the girl he called his girlfriend now and tomorrow was just in love with his bluster.
Someday her prince who was ever around would realize aint no other girl but her.
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